October 2011
77 posts
1 you’re everything the world has to offer everything the stars dream of the promise of the universe a gentle love wielding the sword of Fate and pointing it toward the future i will be your shield, Rose to protect you from the bad just promise to keep me by your side i cannot afford to lose you a third time
2 you can’t expect something for nothing just like you can’t rebuild an old bridge that has burned down surely a new bridge will be constructed where the old one stood and it will be sturdier and stronger than the last and no matter how hard you try you’ll never be able to cross over that old bridge as it returned back into...
3 this poetry is temporary and shall fade like everything else yet it’ll carry on slightly longer than your love this is what keeps me going
4 you taught me to want then you taught me to grieve as the things one seems to want are the things one never seems to need
5 it’s usually easier if you plan out the suicide situate the stars over a summer night and make sure the table cloths are clean or even crack the window blinds so a sliver of moon can illuminate the dust which has settled over the scene make sure the words are clear void of any attachment and that the wall has been painted and ...
6 the daisy you wore in your hair last Halloween is still beside my bed perched on the windowsill like a lost bug it’s in bad shape now time has not treated its features kindly yet it remains happy as it once lingered so close to you
7 and it returns full circle in patterns unknown beneath a summer moon we found home in one another’s arms temporary and fleeing from the future with nothing but love for the past this is real for the moment and we can’t expect it to last as love like this isn’t meant to be contained like daffodils against a...
8 over the remains our summer fling forms into a quick sculpture of sure suicide we took it all in way too fast all of those kisses and cuddlings added up against us the paintings from our outings to art galleries watch us fail they laugh that dreaded laugh laced with acrylic poison pushing up and out of our sickened hearts ...
9 you who became a memory the whore of Babylon cross-stitched and faded onto a new romance you’re upon the light of salvation grows near home is nothing but distance this love you do not fear you who have grown old while burning each second of time i remain as i was then without wrinkles or remorse young and in my prime the future...
10 i knew that things could never be like they were still i tried to bring you down back into the past where we ran before kids with no worries and lots of feelings we called love or lust or something besides this the way i am now down on my knees manic and pacing i swore to myself i’d never be here again i covered up the...
11 i saw another who reminded me of you except she created motion with her hips where you had once mentioned it from your lips
12 your faith is on the wall breaking my honesty for the price of a drink they always seem to get in the way but who’s to say we’ve got it made we’re just sailing in winter seas i’ve lost my right to love you and you’ve succumbed to the disease wasting a night of creation for the loose change of a lonely liver ...
13 i wanted to become real with the motion of your touch a simple symphony of longing distributed eagerly from the confines of your love i wanted a morning by your side a chance to challenge the dawn alongside towering mandalas of dew displaying balance of perfect oneness mirroring us in feelings uncharted by time or song i wanted your...
14 thought i saw you walking down by another fountain picking sorrow like flowers looking at its imaginary petals and smiling that old forgotten smile i think you knew more than nothing i caught you trying to run back into that something you were sure of where no one knew who you were if we can try this later staring off into the night as...
15 we wait like shadows of the past etched in fragments along idle street corners where strangers pass hidden lovers with dark motives a plume of smoke rising from their necks and into the moonlight where we swam so long ago now lost and cracked opened to reveal the present to expose the drugs and deceit that...
16 i feel like i am just waiting sitting around and hoping for something better to come and break this long fall if you saw me in this state you would scold me because we know better there’s more to living than chasing your memory down discarded avenues in Manhattan it took me years to learn this in the past when you left i...
17 thank you for being a friend and forgiving my mistakes thank you for the memories which still make me cry even now a decade later thank you for understanding where it was at thank you for showing me how to live how to enjoy the little things and capture them in art thank you for letting me go so i...
18 some give beauty in exchange for love some give the raven instead of the dove some fear the future some pursue the past some give it all up some can’t get past what some have done, so some steal the moon while some hide the sun
19 each way has gone before stumbling down uneven rules shadowplayatnight ringing ears the dread of morning waking up beside oblivion and the price we pay for this art mending hearts shooting up the dark with needles of gypsykiss honey stiff like jelly running money inside empty wallets loaded fingers full...
20 this is perfect a gray drama born in blue blankets bemused by boredom i painted your portrait in new colors unknown to the critics they gave their blessings and placed you upon a purple pedestal meant for the damned your crown sparkled at such a height i couldn’t have been more proud of you
21 what remains unseen blankets on the bed are clean downtown streets sparkling in green envy the price you pay to be all of these nights locked up alone before you could call to me i forgot about home the comfort in your touch removed from distant disease healed by the praising of your generous crutch but i can’t follow you i...
22 we gave it up for one another after prom in a dark hotel room lit by the blues of a lonesome moon it’s funny how it went from a dance and pot and vodka to being an adult in the flash of a camera i wanted you so bad i wanted every thought in your head i wanted every song in your heart we were young and you...
23 even amongst the flowers can the harmony stop force its way back into comfort and grow sideways or not at all
24 i don’t want to be reminded of the past too many nights were spent fighting with your ghost and i gave up i let it win i withdrew into the darkness you watched me radiate in i got sober and grew that was a long time ago i lit a green candle for you as i read poems written by Henry Rollins with glittering panic which stretches...
25 another night of no(sleep) alongside split oranges and Moroccan tea cigarettes dissolving into nightscenes i watched you run the other afternoon before an image of yourself caught in tomorrow i was mending a thought for a kiss the ocean of unknown word i still miss
26 some good came from whatever we just went through maybe you see it too maybe you know how much i really love you without having to say it i wish i could i wish i could say it but that would open up a new world i’m not ready for and losing you is tough...
27 i’m getting over you now every day finds things a bit clearer the rumors of the affair have quieted down your ghost no longer lingers closer to me at night when i’m alone i’ve given you up i’ve shunned your throne the princess to my heart longer you’re not i only wish we could have said things better before you had...
28 if someone told me we’d be here again i would have broken down in self-despair and would have forced myself to drink until i fell asleep like i did for many years, long ago i grew out of that and listened to the quiet calm of night alone in bed candles burning incense clinching the air no thoughts except those of peace...
29 Remembering the warm June breezes We’ve become star-crossed saints Of this late February day Sifting through empty egos A plan to join the vessels For the price of empty pleasure Of these spirits that have remained adjoined Performing its disease We give in to the pleasures In a purple play of distraught drama That cut through reality ...
30 my redemption lies in oblivion hands outstretched heart opened wide soaking up the shine of the sun with eternity waiting at my side
31 you have placed me upon this pedestal to be judged amongst the dead this world is yours for the taking i am but a thorn to your head the crown you wear to Armageddon is made up of the ones you’ve used no one can see beneath your gown that great purple bruise it’s so becoming on your belly my world here did reside i long for the love...
32 watching reality fold back in over itself as everything returns back to the beginning as we arrive at our end all of this folding is so old and i pray to G-d that it all goes away and that i can be me again and not worry about you or the medicine fogging my head or the endless nights tossing and turning in this fiery bed listening...
33 this is for you for us for those times i’d rather not remember i have a horrible memory but still can’t forget the flowers or your hair and holding your hand on a boulder outside amidst an orchestra of grass, wind and hope your grace penetrated every curse i spat thru my teeth as a drunk who...
34 maybe Manhattan a place to love me to take me in to undo what’s been done by so many years of self- destructing damn i’m damned into this corner of grief where shadows struggle to the light she left after tea and rosekisses one evening i let her go because i’m not man enough to...
35 i lit a thin green candle along with a spiral of sandalwood incense i put on Leonard Cohen’s ‘Songs From A Room’ and traced her face along the blank portions of my adorned walls she is a stranger here and i am the priest blessed with the gift of her memory i have been sent by G-d to keep her alive sometimes it’s hard in...
36 i put aside my fears i let love win it took a little patience some candles and a willing heart she crept inside during the ceremony and placed this gift on a shelf where the painful reminder of your absence had once sat
37 your voice snuck up behind me. it approached in such a way that i could only be reminded of iodine; the smell of those old wounds and how quietly they came into being. you were proud of that pain.
38 they say it was wrong for me to have needed you so much for once i think they were right even the stars told me how wrong you were you’re still a girl searching for some type of inifinite happiness no man is capable of and i’m still waiting for you to catch on to that it’s been so long that i have been...
39 she’s burned out and i’m unfit to love and sleep sounds ok now but i’ve given up on that too so i brew a pot of stale coffee and have a smoke and daydream of whatever there is to help keep my mind off of her or him and them holding hands and fucking and their kisses that used to be mine but he...
40 what became of us lovers of yesterday spent on kisses and warm cups of jasmine tea i had wanted so bad to set you free to become that dream you’d reflect on at night lost in deep sleep awakening long enough to wrap your arms around me then head back into that secret place where no one...
41 so many nights fighting without you you had become my flesh my bones my will my desire i had become a warrior of pity i slayed myself beautifully each night as you were many miles away letting a man have his way with your gift
